4/9/2019

Thoughts on thoughts?

My perspective on how my brain works/ thinks: One day I was riding with my wife, and there was a short bit of silence. In those situations my brain entertains itself by having a conversation internally. The easiest way for me to explain this process is, I feel like there is the voice I hear internally that I call “curious me”, the other side of the conversation isn’t so much a voice, but it is more of a filter. I call this filter “external me”. Basically curious me refuses to ever shut up, and external me does it’s best to filter all these raw thoughts into what everyone else sees as the “complete me”. 

There was an interesting blurb I read about how everyone else sees a slightly different version of me depending on all the various interactions over time. This particular day I started thinking about how my comfort level with a person dictates the effort my filter puts into keeping curious me solely inside my head. The more comfortable I am with someone, the more I like to talk about what curious me is thinking. I wondered if my wife had similar thoughts, or more importantly, I was interested in how she saw her own thought processes. The conversation derailed when I tried to explain the voice inside my head. She thought I was crazy for basically talking to myself. Now I want to know how other people’s experiences relate. Do I just suck at explaining my own understanding, or am I just a slight bit odd?